Yesterday was my final day delivering pizzas. I was getting ready to clock out and my manager told me to take one last pizza before I left for good. I delivered the pizza to a happy stoner and came back with just enough deliveries total to get my 5 dollar bonus. What a nice way to end a career, eh?
The date of my departure is drawing near, and I won’t be able to update while I am gone. I was never stressed out about leaving but lately I’ve been waking up and thinking “I won’t have any of this while I’m gone.” My bed, my blankets, my house, my running water and indoor toilet, my car. My internet, my music, my plushies, by books…am I forgetting anything? So needless to say I’ve been trying to use up the last of my diaper stock. I’ve started dipping into some of the vintage diapers I’ve been gifted as well.
Pictured above are some vintage attends and depends. The depends are blue and very crinkly. I like the attends well enough, though not enough to pay what they are fetching these days. They have a nice bulk and the backing has a pleasant feel, like i’d expect from a baby diaper, but the capacity isn’t like the premium diapers. I leaked all over the computer chair after a while. Of course they are still much better than their present day incarnations. I wouldn’t trust today’s store brand diapers to hold a single wetting much less 2 hours worth like the old style attends did before leaking, though with a stuffer or two the depends fitted diapers are the most comfy diaper I know.
I have been doing some messing to try and use the remaining diapers up quicker. I still like the dulcolax method. Heck, I have to get rid of my suppositories anyway! In some of those pictures I am messy and when I cleaned up later I was shocked at the sheer volume left behind; it looked like someone had dumped a bowl of pudding in my diaper! What the bajeezus?!
When you use dulcolax, you’d better wait a while to make sure you are finished going before you change. You will spend a minute or two just evacuating uncontrollably…then, just when you think you are done, out comes another hershey squirt from the fudge factory. I’d give it a good 15 minutes before changing just to be safe. I don’t use them because I have a thing for poo - I just love that desparate feeling of helplessness I get as I clench my cheeks together in an attempt to stop myself from pooping my pants followed by the mixed feeling of relief and humiliation as it inches its way out of my hole, slipping through my crack and into the thick fabric of the diaper. Now if I really wanted a humiliating experience, I could insert one of these in a public place without a diaper on and try to make it home in time… hehe, 20 minutes seems to be my limit. Only problem is the smell, I am not a fan of stinky poo! And if it ran down my legs and into my shoes? Why I would have stinky poo shoes! I do not care for stinky poo shoes one bit, Sam! Not one bit!
anyway, my mission to use up my diapers continues with my first diaper of the day, an abena x-plus. The padding of these diapers sticks up well above the back of my jeans (final photo) and is very soft and fluffy to the touch. Not to mention crinkly - I love the feel of plastic backing on a diaper, don’t you? Of course it also makes them very obvious, so I have to be careful not to let my shirt ride up too far when I walk around or bend over. I don’t know what I am going to do with all of my ABDL paraphernalia when I leave… it’s too incriminating to leave but I might want it when I get back so I don’t want to sell it. I hope I can find a safe place to keep it while I’m gone, otherwise…I hope I find a good home for it all and don’t have to throw it away…
It’s not usually stressful for me to move, but this time there is a lot of paperwork and stuff to remember, so it’s harder. I keep having dreams where I keep missing class, and have to rush there and turn in my work and pray I pass as long as I don’t forget anymore classes or assignments…. which I promptly proceed to do. It’s always an English class for some reason, too. C’mon subconscious, can’t I just have a nice diaper dream instead?
Anyhow, thanks for everyone who has joined me on this journey. There won’t be many entries before I leave but I hope many people can go through the archives and enjoy my blog while I am away. One thing I swear….I will be back! So don’t forget. 27 months from now, I will return from my adventures so mark your calendars! And check back over the month for the final posts before my departure. And always remember, STAY SAFE: STAY PADDED!